AS A SILKWORM WEAVING & DYING AWAY AMID ITS PERFORMANCE

SKETCH FOR MY DEATH

. . .  and death will come

As if itself, by icicles inter-wined
into iron bars, in the place of window 
was caught, as looking from the overground top
of my underground solitary confinement 
how, instead of the last breaths 
all the night, was dropping from above the icy rust 
on the bed, empty of mattress and sheets 
and my, human 
shell 

Or it just pretended, up there on the ceiling 
to see not how my body 
curled down there on the cell threshold 
grabs by the last twitches 
the remnants of an ancient summer heat 
creaped once, by the stony stairs 
into underground of the old building 
of order 
and system 

. . . or it was commanded, at the last minute 
to postpone 
or . . . 

Certainly, it descended not! 

I remember, as if it was yesterday 
that from above 
through the icy emptiness of the bars 
whiled, the Abyss 

But that in them, while therefrom dropped the soot 
was not entwined, It's face 
only, gentle, shadow of Death instead

Only a mute imprint of life in the cell 
in which, for me, has died a man 
in which a friend remained laying down 
as if on the ice, until Judgment Day 
in which History was announced by Barabbas 
in which he was again chosen by mob 
to be her savior 

You stayed sitting on two halves
both of which are burning - with blaze 

Hence, even today, I am among you, cold 
All quondam heats are spent 

Please, shut the window 
I do shiver, in your world 


PostScript:

GUIDE HOW TO SEE THE JAIL FROM INSIDE

To the left of the entrance, in solitary confinement, in the icy, meters high basement, with the gridded window by its very top so as a bit of air enter the old musty Austrian building, with a huge iron bed without mattress and bed-sheets, and with a huge container for my night toilet that I will, at dawn, as accompanied by the prison guard, personally carry to empty into a pit from which has first to be removed a heavy stone lid, I spent a winter night (of Sarajevo Olympics) from which I have never come out among the humans.

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